Silly Honesty 

My words may sound silly and often times too quickly expressed, without a deep-driven process of thoughts. But they are honest, and that should mean something. And honestly, everything. 

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Exploration of Trust 

Trust.

Why is it so scary?

Why does it make my shoulders cringe?

All I really want is to be open,

Embraced,

And exposed.

But trust…

It’s hard.

I’m fearful.

But I want to let go.

Why can’t I? 

What’s stopping me?

Why are people so deceitful that even the good ones get ruined by our own illusions?

Why illusions at all?

Possibly from hurt?

Possibly from failure?

Or not measuring up?

Why even ask these questions, when they’re followed by more painful questions in the form of answers?

I’ll stop there.

Love Letter 1

Dear love,

Thank you for wanting nothing but happiness to live in my spirit.

Genuineness is hard to come by. 

Thank you for putting yourself always before me. Teaching me. Guiding me. Protecting me. Always wanting the best for me. 

Selflessness is something rare, and is of purest intention. I’m thankful that you give it off and teach me more about it daily. 

Thank you for your patience, though sometimes I don’t acknowledge it. We both know how stubborn and hard-headed I can be, but you still wait. You still love. You still pursue. 

Your love has no limits, and I’ll always be grateful for that. Or at least I’ll try to remember to be…

When things get challenging, it’s hard to stay focused. It’s hard to remember that your there, near, and able to love me through it. But you are witty like that. You put people, and places, and memories right back in my train of thought or days, at the most perfect times, to get me back on track. To remember the purpose. To help me see things differently. 

This life is not even life without you… 

I just want you to know that.

I’ll always want you right here by my side, even when it doesn’t seem like it. 

I love you, and I want to learn how to love you more each day. 

With all my heart,

Lauren ♡

Letting go…

There comes a time in life when you learn it’s time to let go.

Let go of that bad habit.
Let go of that person.
Let go of the dream that just can’t fall into place.
Let go of regrets.
Let go of your ego.

“Beverly Hills” is about just that.
Calling  quits on the one thing that kept holding me down, tearing me apart, making me hurt, making me angry, leaving me broken.

It’s not that I gave up or didn’t care.
It’s just that I learned to care more about myself than the thing that was hardening my heart.
It made all the difference…..

Letting go can be a start of true happiness and freedom. Encouraging you all to let go of the things that hold you back from who you are meant to be.

♡ Lauren

If there’s a will, there’s always a way.

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Going back to the basics to understand a few things…

God places things on your heart and you can’t deny them, but you can push them aside.

The only problem with that is that your constantly reminded and your heart is nudged with guilt until you deal with it.

The action and word God is placing on your heart may seem like something that is too big to conquer, but remember you are not alone and he is for you. He wouldn’t be constantly bringing it up, if it wasn’t for your good. He sees the bigger picture, when only we can see what’s before our eyes in this moment.

So when you feel as though you can’t accomplish what is being asked of you, know that if your heart is in it for His greater good and not your own, there will always be a way to overcome. After all, he has overcame for you already. Place it, whatever it may be, in his hands and watch his glory unfold.

He’s got big plans for you. Stay encouraged. You are loved 

Power-up

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A minute and a half
Is all it takes
To take thoughts
And make them dance
Right off the page

Somethings take effort and others come easily. For me writing is more than fun. It’s therapy. We all have our own gifts to be used and embraced.

The other day I wrote, though my mind and body were extremely tired.
I was desperate for energy.
For anything, to help me capture the little I had, to keep going and grow.
I was so exhausted I didn’t even care to search or try to regain it by the end of the day.
I didn’t know what it was that caused this drowsiness, I just knew that it was taking a toll on me.

So at a quarter to eight, I was already complete with chowing down a bowl of apple jacks, bathed, and cozied up in my bed. I had homework still left to do, things to make, reading to get done, but I heard a still voice tell me, “you have time to work, now is time to rest.” So I let myself go, I let my stresses go, I let my expectations of the day go, and just rested. I soon fell into a deep sleep.

Now it’s morning and I am rested and alert. That homework I needed to get to is now complete, the reading and writing I wanted to do is now started, and although I still have creations I want to make, I know that one of these days I’ll get to it in an appropriate timing. I don’t have to worry about my list of to-dos and it is 100% okay to allow yourself to rest. By resting, it allowed me to tackle the things more efficiently and with more energy. It allowed me to power-up and complete them even better than I would have before.

So if your mind, body, and spirit need rest, don’t fight against it. Your spirit guides you and knows you, even more than you probably know yourself. Trust in it and in God. He knows what’s best. So power-up, he’s got big plans for your life and future.

Blessings,
Lauren