We make it too easy,
For the one who’s name isn’t worthy of being mentioned,
But I will choose to call him out.
The serpent of old, accuser, and foe effortlessly recieves power.
By replacing the truth of the matter with diagnoses, pride, fatigue, substance induced minds, and business, we continue to let his plans go unnoticed.
Instead of calling the darkness by name, we give him room to grow and linger.
Instead of choosing to fight and join the war, we settle for complacent habits of self-medicating, accepting passionless lifestyles, and pressing on in our cyclic routines.
The vulnerability in the moments we struggle, suffer, and inebriate ourselves, give way to the enemy to slither in.
To protect your heart, means to be aware of his schemes.
To know your enemy,
You must be confident in what he is after…
He is after your joy in knowing that you are unconditionally loved by God,
And the peace of mind that comes from having no fear of death.
Pick up the shield.
Enjoy the present moment.
Leave the past behind.
The future isn’t here yet…
It’s all a state-of-mind.
Slowly, but surely, transforming…
That’s what I am choosing to believe.
I am able to give Grace,
Because I’ve been shown it.
I thank God for that.
I haven’t been the person God intended.
I’ve been anxious,
But it’s not over,
The page is turning…
The leaves are changing colors.
The dead is starting to breathe, once again.
Revived by God’s spirit,
Into something strong,
Take yourself a little more seriously.
Believe in the words that escape your mouth,
The ones that are spoken within you that often times leak out,
Believe in the spontaneous moments that are starving for your attention,
Believe in the beauty of nature, and how it is so mind-blowingly intricate that there must be a grand Creator.
Follow the beat of your heart that is good, by knowing it’s goodness derived from a sacred place.
Know deep down that there is a bigger purpose and that your pre-destined role is needed.
Apply the advice you humbly give.
It was meant for you, before you gave it.
My words may sound silly and often times too quickly expressed, without a deep-driven process of thoughts. But they are honest, and that should mean something. And honestly, everything.
Why is it so scary?
Why does it make my shoulders cringe?
All I really want is to be open,
But I want to let go.
Why can’t I?
What’s stopping me?
Why are people so deceitful that even the good ones get ruined by our own illusions?
Why illusions at all?
Possibly from hurt?
Possibly from failure?
Or not measuring up?
Why even ask these questions, when they’re followed by more painful questions in the form of answers?
I’ll stop there.
Thank you for wanting nothing but happiness to live in my spirit.
Genuineness is hard to come by.
Thank you for putting yourself always before me. Teaching me. Guiding me. Protecting me. Always wanting the best for me.
Selflessness is something rare, and is of purest intention. I’m thankful that you give it off and teach me more about it daily.
Thank you for your patience, though sometimes I don’t acknowledge it. We both know how stubborn and hard-headed I can be, but you still wait. You still love. You still pursue.
Your love has no limits, and I’ll always be grateful for that. Or at least I’ll try to remember to be…
When things get challenging, it’s hard to stay focused. It’s hard to remember that your there, near, and able to love me through it. But you are witty like that. You put people, and places, and memories right back in my train of thought or days, at the most perfect times, to get me back on track. To remember the purpose. To help me see things differently.
This life is not even life without you…
I just want you to know that.
I’ll always want you right here by my side, even when it doesn’t seem like it.
I love you, and I want to learn how to love you more each day.
With all my heart,
If one can sleep soundly in the midst of unresolved conflict, does that mean they don’t care? Does their lack of effort or concern prove that their investment in the relationship is not as much as you originally thought? Thoughts to ponder and go mad about….or to except these thoughts as truth and walk away?