I used to look into your eyes and feel respect.
Blemishes were small and overlooked,
Now everything is altered.
Now I look and see eyes that have lied and deceived.
We aren’t talking about white ones,
But lies that have manipulated my heart and have hidden parts of who you’ve chosen to become.
No, this isn’t you.
But this is who you want to be.
Forgiveness is sweet in a moment,
But you aren’t warned about the trials that will soon follow.
Paranoia creeps in and I am left in a vicious cycle of what to believe….
Your eyes are so heavy,
I notice everything,
Even more so than before…
My mistake was not following my gut.
I don’t want to ignore it again,
Because my truth is that you aren’t truly on my side,
And the only one in this house that has my best interest,